Birthday wish

Friday, 20Dec2009, 7.43pm

She message me...
she wish me happy birthday, it is my lunar calendar birthday.

i was shock... 'how come she knows ?'
i go check the calendar, is there any ways to check someone birthday?
nope ... i can't
then i finally figure out, her birthday just 3days after my birthday, sure she knows lor ....

really impresive... really din expect any friend will wish me for my lunar birthday, cause they never know, and even my best friend, i oso din tell them, or even they ask....
maybe it is fate for me to meet her...
know that she is good, but cannot having her...
maybe she treat her friend very nice, but not her boy friend, haha !
anyway, wish her Happy Birthday !
cause today is her lunar birthday.
but, she says in her blog that she will not happy, cause there will be something happen,
but she din mention what is going on....
just wish her all the best ...
i will help if you call me, and if i am able,
we are friend, right ? ^^

THE END

27Oct2009 02.33am 'Actually since early i ardy tell you we are frend.Izzit? ' she message me ...

My dad

still remember during the primary school, my dad fetch me to school by motocycle.
on the road, he talk a lot to me...
my future, my studies, teach me this teach me that...
still remember he said, 'the old time, parents din tell me all this...'
so, he hope he can use himself as a guidance for me, so that i can be a successful man in the future,
at least i have a happy family and no worry about the income, so he always remind me to study hard.

'you should do what you should, in every stages of your age' he said, always ...
when you are 7 years old, you study in primary school.
when you are 13years old, you study in secondary school.
when you are 19years old, u study University.
when you are....

but he never say how old i am, is the time to have a girl friend...
he just say, 'when you come out work.'

of course, i din listen, haha !

when he is serious, he very mature,
when he is playful, he very funny...
in the old times, he very straight,
but getting tolerate with us since we are growing up ...

my family...
all very funny , haha !
wish them happy always !
and stay healthy !

THE END

My second present..

Today i finally take out my present...(15Nov 2009)
before i come back to ipoh...

Here it is ...

 

 

 

Still remember... i sent her a message ' why im not the 1st who meet you, why you not the 1st who give me the present '.

THE END

爱丫爱丫

Before i coming back from my hostel, my housemate, saimeng...
keep playing a song - 爱丫爱丫...

then slowly... i being infected, haha !

this afternoon, i go search in baidu, then download the song, then i also read its lyric...

多喜欢你从来不会说

多在乎你到底懂不懂

你有没有对我一点点心动


爱我的话给我回答


我的爱丫爱丫没时差

等待是我为你付出的代价


爱我的话要回答


我只等你等你一句话


走太远你走太远你的回答听不见
等待是我为你付出的代价 

here it is....

haha! ^^

before this song, 1st song i listen from by2 is 我知道.
actually i know this song because of her, her caller ringtone.
1st time i call... just wait her to pick up the phone...
2nd... 3rd... slowly being infected... then go download the song, and listen...
try to listen to the lyric, seek the meaning from the song...
everytime i listen will think of her...

after come back to ipoh, i will forget her completely...
i hope ^^
and i will ^^

THE END

Going back home ^^

Before i finish my exam, i were thinking... how would i spend my holiday ...
i want ... go clubbing ! haha ! ^^ never been there before...
go to penang and KL, wana asking friend come out, wana drive in drive out, apply passport, so that i can go singapore, anytime ! haha ! ^^

but after exam... feel so lazy... feel like just wana stay at home...
last night she message me, asking for chat...
i think frm 12am till 4am.. around that...

every message have to think carefully... before send to her... haha ! so stupid...
lot of question want ask, but just keep remind me not to ask... try to be cool ! haha ! ^^
but i think not so successful... but i think it's a good try...^^

what's my plan, she ask...
i just simple answer... 'no plan'...

my senior, sam, going to move into same house/hostel with her.
what will going to happen in the next sem, i wonder.... haha ! ^^

sam says, will move her stuff in this morning.
and she says their house is veeeery thirty ! haha !
and she message me to not to telling them about she complaining their house ! haha !

last night dinner with sam and simon, he is my coursemate, and even now...
eh... although from different block, but can consider as same house living together.
he will only go back when he want to bath and sleep.

i keep so hard myself not to ask about... 'did u call her, M ?'
finally i din ask...
'dun ask, dun ask...' keep repeating to myself ...
why so love to become busybody ... haha !

before planning my holiday... i think i should plan how to go through today.
sleep at 5am, i think, wake up at 10am something...
now so sleepy... maybe just play game till night, then pack up my stuff, sleep,
then go back ! haha ! ^^

THE END

sorry for late reply .. ^^

actually i din notice i receive message from you ..
after about an hour later, my friend message me, i only read your message and reply..
don't know what will you think of me ...
maybe just forget that u have message me ?
i din give my senior, sam number to you directly, but i ask her to contact you if she intend to let you know her number...
so... it's up to her if she want contact with you or not..
but i think she will contact you, cause you two going to live together in next sem in same hostel..
so enjoy ^^

THE END

Finish exam loo.... ^^

Finally finish my exam..
my last paper... statistics ...
so damn ... hard ... some part din cover ...
most damn thing is, i thought need to answer 5questions, but actually is 6questions !
but, luckily i did the 6th question using my last half an hour..
cause i thought the exam end at 11.30 am but actually is 11.00am
i have done all my paper and day dreaming there...
so i just do the last question, and i thought i had finished the whole set of question,
but actually still have a last question in the last sheet of the question paper.
and there got 2section, 1st section is compulsory, and the last section is choose 4 from 5 questions..
there got total 6qeustion have to answer .. luckily i did it in the last minute...
haiz ... but i feel cant score very much ....
wait die ...

sunday im going back home lor ! ^^ i will go back together with my friend from ipoh by her car...
take turn to be driver lor ...
actually i still, still enjoying driving, haha ! ^^
so this time will not feel bore on the way back to ipoh loo ... haha ! ^^

THE END

奇奇怪怪的问题

难道不能等吗?
奇奇怪怪的问题又再浮现在我脑海里...

早上, 发了奇怪的梦, 又问奇怪的问题...

是因为他比较成熟, 所以选择了他? (假设性问题, 我很喜欢问, 然后自问自答...)
一年后的我, 不是和他同年了吗?

然而, 答案可以很简单... 年龄不是问题...
是吗?

女生都不喜欢给答案, 她们会说, 答案并不重要... (不是全部啦... 但我就遇到了这女生...)
但, 妳也不是时常要我回答妳的问题吗?
只不过是闲聊, 难道就很重要吗?
妳只不过是在逃避我的问题...

(不知不觉... 我又掉如谷底...
又问无聊问题了...)

有时, 的确, 一些问题不用答得太明, 也不用问得太明,
但, 我自认我还没到达那境界,
可以看穿一位女生的心啊 !
只能做到的事...
从妳的语言,
加上逻辑推理,
加上感觉,
但... 这也只不过是瞎猜吧了...

瞎猜并不好玩...
自问自答也不好玩...

听得到妳的不开心,
但就不能安慰妳...
听得出妳在流泪,
但就不能为妳察掉眼泪...

'算了...' 我朋友告诉我...
放弃她吧...
我接受...

我会病好的... ^^
谢谢我的朋友! ^^

THE END

wei...

喂...
我又开妳的'布落阁'了!
妳知道吗?!

我知道妳送我礼物,
我知道妳对我好,
我知道妳还要交我这朋友,

但妳知道吗..
我很想放下对你的感情,
我很想驱走我的孤单,
我很想放下对你的期待,
我很想放下我对妳的依赖...
我也很想和妳完成那一支舞...

我会习惯 的,
从妳身上学来的..

我无法不当若无其事,
也很想回到当天认识的那一天,
但我不后悔,
因为,
从妳 身上学会了不少东西...

可是,
我还没学会,
如何安慰伤心的女生,
流眼泪的女生...

我还是没勇气面对妳,
我还是没勇气打开妳送我的礼物,
我还是没勇气和妳说一句话...

但,
我还是提起了我最大的勇气,
寄简讯给妳,
'考试加油!'

其实我..
还舍不得删除妳的讯息,
还舍不得改掉我电脑的screen saver,
还舍不得停止玩restaurant city,
可能习惯了吧..

谢谢妳给我的礼物!
谢谢妳对我体贴!
谢谢妳给我的关心!
谢谢妳对我温柔!
谢谢妳给我的祝福!
谢谢妳对我容忍!
谢谢妳给我的回忆!
谢谢妳的一切!
还有...
谢谢妳把我写在妳的'布落阁'上!

THE END

因为妳，我开始玩restaurant city.
因为妳，我朋友把妳的名字写在我的screen saver.

I met her

5th Nov 2009

i went to main cam by bus at about 12.30, planned to take the account book (buku saham), take lunch and see my marks for my mathematics.

i 1st went to take my account book, then i straightly go to take lunch ( i forgot to see my marks ! ^^ )

i saw her classmate.. i wonder.. will i meet her here ?
i din see her around. maybe will be arrive at 2pm.
her classmate all studying, later sure got exam.

so.. i just go take my lunch and eat..
after i finish my lunch.. then i walk to the bus stop, to take bus back to hostel.

the bus came. i saw her on the bus. but i think she din notice me..
i walk to the bus another side. she were sitting the row near the bus door.
i walk to the bus driver site from behind.. maybe i still cant face her..
i wait her walk down the bus, then only i get into the bus.

on the bus, i met my friends.. while chatting with them, i'm struggling..
want o wish her good luck ?? too common ..
wish her all the best ?? it's all the same ...

finally i sent her a message '考试加油! '
then she reply 'thx ! :-) '

i think .... already a week over.. she din put the smile face in the message she sent to me. maybe past 2weeks already... i .. so hard to describe the feeling, watching the smile face.. happy ? mix with sad ? with disappointment? a little bit grateful ? (for replying me with a smile face)
actually is i think too much ...

then i reply with a smile face ' :-) '
and she reply 'u too'
i reply then 'dun worry'
and she reply 'be happy'
i reply then 'i will'

THE END


she said... sometimes we should not too stubborn on looking for answer ..
I'm learning :-)

2nd birthday present

4th of Nov

she sudden message me ... 'wei'
i think it was 9 something at d night..

i were shock, i reply then 'yesh... wrong number ? :-D '
then she ask me whether i free or not ...

then i guess .. she must be wanna give me something, then i ask her 'you want to give me sumthing ?'
then she reply 'yes' and ask me go down to pondok..

that time, i were thinking 'is she want to return d watch that i gave her before ??'
but i din think much, i just reply ' no nid ler...'

after about 5minutes, she send me a message, 'i have gave it to your friend.'
then i receive it after 2minutes i read the message.

it was covered by the plastic bag. i think it is... T-shirt or something ... i havent take it out..
i just put it in my drawer.. 'Glordano', i can read from the plastic bag..

i were happy but in the same time, i feel so sad ...
cause i were planed to forget all the thing she done to me, at least don't want to keep it in my mind... messages, her caring .. everything...

the 1st time she bought me 红豆水.. that how we start.. start to get closer... start o care each other..

the very 1st beginning was .... i company her n her friends to BSN to buy the code for the PTPTN. she bought me 红豆水 to thank me..
after that i also bought her drinks, food... to thank her for buying me ...
she even gave me a homemade 凉水 in that time...

about a week ago, i have quarrel with her.. she says.. it was a mistake.. bought me that 红豆水.
because that how we start...from stranger becomes friend, from friend become close friend, and even close...

we discuss our problem in the facebook message. we both wrote so long.. about 1k words. she wrote in mandarin, while i wrote in english. but i also reply her 2messages in mandarin..

finally.. she said.. she can't accept me...
then i reply said.. 'i accept and respect ur decision'

THE END

i thought my story has comes to the end...
it was the end .. until, she message me and gave me the present.. then she message me using facebook '或许有些东西你已经不需要了吧... 不过原本就打算送你的东西,觉得还是给你比较好.
不管你要怎样处理他,我也不打算过问. 恩... 祝福你考试顺利... '

i don't know how to reply... my friend ask me, just reply her ' thx a lot, wish u al d best too !'
but i can't... i can't act like really nothing happened ...

i still can't reply the message, i still can't take out my present from my drawer .....

i were so down .. past few days ... im starting getting myself, used to go on my daily life without her.. not to message her, not to wait for her message.. my phone looks like not functioning at all.. maybe it has shut it down itself.. i had been few days didn't received a single message, from anyone...

im waiting for my doctor, Dr. Time, to heal me.. but suddenly, the feeling comes back, my sadness..

im start thinking ...why she still wan buy me present ??
y ? did she said she was regret bought me thing ??
y ? is she just, just treating me as friend ?
y? she bought it from very early ? before we had quarrel ?
lots of question .....

i don't want to think ... every night, i sleep at 4am.. most early is 4am.. im so afraid i can't sleep.. open my eyes, wait for the dawn .. i want make myself as tired as possible, i want to sleep once i lay down on my bed.. i don't want to think..

this few days ... i can feel the emptiness.. at the night, after dinner, i keep looking for food, biscuit, sweet, bread, anything that can put in mouth.. i want to eat.. but actually, i'm not hungry at all ....
'that call emptiness ...' my friends told me when i told them about ....

i wana sleep ler ...
Gud nite, 'her name' ! :-)
every night i also message her ... until ...


time to sleep ! ^^
tomorrow will be better ! ^^ go go go !

My birthday present ^^

She is my senior ^^ n she bought me a present tat i hoping, for long long time ...
haha ! ^^

Pretty ? ^^ yeah !

20 years old birthday ! ^^

1st of Nov is my birthday ! ^^ i had received 26 messages in fb n 14 msgs in my hp ^^
my frnd frm ipoh who went to kampar even call me leh.. haha ! ^^
thx oo...

Tat nite... my frnds n i went to d corner outsite d hostel for dinner.
bout at 10pm, we finish eating, we go b to our hostel.

we were told tat we hav a briefing frm our seniors, bout 2mr, 2nd Nov exam, my 1st paper, which is TITAS. i were plan to go b hostel without goin tat briefing...

then we come to pondok, then i plan to tel my frnds tat im goin upstairs ...

suddenly, my frnd take out a birthday cake.. i were shock leh...^^

then they start singing d birthday song ! ^^

Tis is d pic wif all my frnds ! ^^
unfortunately.... we din take pic for d cake ... :-(

he is 'ah hong', 25th oct is his birhday, bt every1 went home... so din celebrate for him ..
bt nvm ... we celebrate together ba ! ^^

Pic wif my frnds ^^

haha ! ^^

1st time create acc for blog leh....haha ! ^^
hmm...i always gt sumting in my heart ..
so my frnd quite unlucky, cz when i got sumting to tel, i sure catch them, then talk talk talk n talk ! ^^
so ... nw i got another way to express myself loo ! tell u all my stories !
haha ! ^^
any comments are welcome ! ^^